Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

Who Should Paint You: Gustav Klimt

Sensual and gorgeous, you would inspire an enchanting portrait.. With just enough classic appeal to be hung in any museum!

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Your Seduction Style: Prized Object

The seduction game you play is tried, true, and still effective: hard to get. You know that the best seducers turn the tables - and get their crush to seduce them. The one running has the power, and you're a challenge that is worth the chase. You are a master of enticing and pulling back. Giving a little and taking some away. You are controlled enough to know rewards come after a long seduction dance. Even though you want to call, email, or say "I love you" first - you don't! You're style is the perfect mix of hot and cold - so much so that you have many suitors. Think Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's ... or any of those creepy guys from the Bachelor. You're skilled at inspiring a chase. The real test is picking the person to slow down for.

Your Kissing Purity Score: 9% Pure

For you, it's all kiss and no talk. You're in a permanent lip lock.

You're a Playful Kisser

Kissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play You're the first one to suggest playing spin the bottle at a party Or you'll go for the wild kiss during a game of truth or dare And you're up for kissing any sexy stranger if the mood is right!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

You are

You Are 80% Boyish and 20% Girlish

You have a tough exterior - and usually a tough interior to match it. You're no nonsense, logical, and very assertive. Sometimes you can't understand women at all, even if you're a woman yourself. You see things rationally, and don't like to let your emotions get the best of you.

yeah yeah yeah quizzes galore. I'm bored ok? But yeah not much going on Mayra's parents are gone. Graveyard Driftes have a show at lyrics in San Bernardino on Friday and that's about it.
Theresa
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Blondie, you put a new twist on rock and you're

tyring to slowly work your way up you have

some fierce competition ahead of you but that

doesn't get you down. You're fans always pull

throguh. At least you rnot posing on the

cover of play boy just to get yourself

noticed. You're fashion sense is beautifully

strange and your shirts today are very bold

and diffrent as far as other celebs you won't

make it as far but that doesn't stop you

you're very driven and love what you do your

career is your passion. Sometimes you tend to

trust people to soon and to quickly which may

lead you to some stick situations but you'll

get out of them.
Song:1.Heart of Glass
Quote:"just blondie"
Color:Gold


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Yay! I'm Blondie, so this means I didn't steal that neon yellow shirt from Wal-Mart in vain!!! Haha true story. Just lettin all yall know
Have a tremedous fucking day
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Hey, check out the quiz I made for you...about me of course, enjoy.

http://www.chatterbean.com/createyourownquiz/myquiz.php?qid=4872

Tell me what you think.

You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven

black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No

one really knows why your feathers are this

dark, because you always conceal yourself

with a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you,

and you take it out on others and the world.

In Spite of your beauty, your inside is

twisted and dead, because you were hurt so

badly that youre heart couldnt take it.

Before, your wings were white, and slowly,

when your life was changing, so was the

color. You have no friends, because you cant

let anyone get too close to you. Grief fills

your heart, though anger blinds your eyes.


What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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Your a Demon! Heh, really, what on earth did you

answer? Oh well...Demons are evil,

mischevious, spiteful, malicious, dark, or

just plain bad creatures. They abide in

shadows and cemetaries and to hide from wary

eyes, become one with a shadow. Appearences

may vary. Some are horned red or blac

fearsoem creatures with whiplash tounges,

others look like clogs of smog, and others

look like cream and when it hits coffee kind

of effect. Eitherway, Demons swoop around,

causing jvoc and Choas, and have no good

side. You have been warned.


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Soooo...yeah, look out. I know I know quizzes all the time, but I'm bored at work, sorry.

So I was worried about Kevin all last week and this weekend, and it turns out for good reason, he was in jail. He was being dumb and tried to steal alcohol from wally world. But yeah he's ok and we're hanging out tonight or over the weekend. But yeah this weekend was fun except friday night some bros were at the bonfire I was at that my pal Sara Mae was throwing for Heather's 18th B-day. One of em got hit in the face with a full beer can(heeheehee) but no one knows who threw it. Then these two drunk assholes start talking shit to everyone so 2 kids were gonna fight but Sara and Heather tried breaking em up so 2 bro hos tried fighting them, that pissed me off so fucking bad I wanted to beat the shit out of them but they looked like they were 12 so yeah. But about an hour of insults and really stupid trash talking I left, but as Kayse, Mayra, and I were leaving 2 drunk ass bros started talking shit so of course we said shit back then one guy tells Kayse she needs to go to Jenny Craig. After that I was seeing red, I wanted to fucking kill that bitch. I would have if Kayse and Mayra didn't stop me but yeah fun times with dumbass Hemet kids. I don't have a problem with "bros" except "bros" like that who get massive beer muscles and talk out of there asses. Then we have a fucking problem. I have friends that are "broish" they don't act like that, so come on. But yeah Saturday was so much better we went to Riverside with the boys from Graveyard Drifters aka, Mosey, Chord, Joel, Alley, and Jack, but yeah fun times. They played at a house out there, but only for like 10 minutes cuz the cops kept showing up but when they were playing the crowd had more energy than they had for any other band that night. Yeah you should check them out http://www.myspace.com/graveyarddrifters

Ok children I'm going to go hit something really hard cuz telling that story got me all pissed off AGAIN!!! Have a lovely day.
Bye
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Oh wow, I completely forgot about this thing with all the new shit out there, myspace, vainspace, and all that stuff. But yeah I'm back. It's me Rease the one the only haha, jk. So yeah I work for my dad now and got my septum pierced that one hurt a lil bit. But yeah still hang out with Mayra and Angelica but other than them and a few others, I hang out with a different crowd now. Still has drama but not as much cuz I mostly hang out with guys again. But yeah this thing has changed, that and I actually know what I'm doing now haha. Man yeah, I'm actually at work right now nothing for me to do so I get a break for livejournal and such, ok so hope everyone is doing well. Take care.
Theresa
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You have a malicious soul! Malice, when defined
means, The urge to see the sufferings of others
But you dont really mean any harm to anyone,
you just like to watch it. Mischievous, cruel,
and seducing, you can hurt others with cruel
words or just be plain mean. Prank calls,
tripping people, and breaking the laws are your
favorite past times. You can lie just as easily
as laugh, even to a close one. People are
intimidated by you because you never let people
get close to you. Youre cold, ruthless, and
pessimistic behavior drives people away, which
show the pain you feel inside.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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WoW is that really me? Probably, I just pretend to b nice. Oh well. I gat a tattoo last week. It says lucky 13 with a star below it. The writing is black outlining, pink coloring, the star is black with some pink shading around it. It's on my lower back. I also colored my hair black. Well I didn't, Mae did. Anyway that's about it, I haven't really talked to Ryan that much lately. I dunno, but I met this really hot guy when I went to KIng of the Cage. It was awesome. Anyway, I'm probably gonna start my new journal. If you want to know about it just ask.

Ok not much is goin on except Ryan is starting to freak me out he started saying I love you. WTF it's sweet but dude after a month and a half?!?!?!? Kinda creepy. Yeah I miss Jen. But anywho, I'm haveing a depressed bout again. I hate it. And I'm becoming a chain smoker. YAY!! Ummm...I might move in with Luz, Fela, and Jose. Soon I hope bc I can't take it at home anymore, "You know it's killing me to say this, but dying inside to leave." I hate being home and dealing with all the shit they throw at me. I always seem to bitch on these entries, Sorry. I saw Mae and Angelica last Frisay and ages of not seeing them. I miss them too. They're going to cosmotoligy school, whiuch I want to do also, but my mom said if I want to go Ihave to pay myself bc it's not real school. What the fuck does that mean. It is real school, it's harder bc if you fuck up, that's someone's hair. Yeah well I don't have anything exciting to say except that in the summer Luz and I are getting our boob jobs. Hooray for us!!! That is about it.
Rease

Hmmmmm...Oh yeah, I'm sitting next to one of the greatest people I know, the one, the only Esmeralda. She's going to MSJC again. And I have a boyfriend but he's gone for a month b/c he's a fireman and has to work. His name is Ryan and he's 19 but an inch shorter than me so that's kinda bad but he's cool and sweet but a little on the boring side. Anyway not much else has happened I colored my hair so it's dark red but it looks more brown, oh well, it doesn't matter. I haven't talked to Jen, Bertha, Lily, or anyone really in such a long time. I miss you guys. And of course I miss you Chris. I know it's a really short entry but my life isn't all that exciting.
Rease

Ok, I don't know if any of you remember me because it's been so long since I've had an entry in so fucking long. Not alot has happened though, really. I haven't talked to Darryl in months, his "best friend" David(the asshole) tried to get in my pants 2 weeks ago, and I just told him, no way. And that was that, but then that guy Ryan likes me now I guess and I dunno. Sean and I are cool again, and he calls me now, so woohoo. Darryl hasn't called and neither has Matt. Oh well whatever. Um, my mom and I are still fighting, nothing new there. My sister in Spain bought a house and I'm going to go visit my sister for my birthday in Santa Cruz. I have my summer vacation for work but I'm gonna work at Target again, woopie. But hey it's money, which I need. Nothing else is goin on though, I'M BORING!!! Anyway I've missed all of you ever so much I'll try to do so much better from now on. Oh and Chris, I love you girlie, hope everything is doin ok. I missed ya.

Rease

Ok, well not too much has been going on lately just work and such. My nephew is so adorable, well of course look at me, jk jk. But I'm still talking to Darryl, sorta bc I only see him on the weekends even though I gave him my number, he never calls me and I hate that, he's like the third guy to do this. I don't get it, if you're gonna ask for my number and I give it to you, then maybe you should try giving me a call. I'm sure he knows how to use a phone so, what's problem? I'm pretty sure he likes me bc every time I see him he holds my hand and we kiss so I obviously like him too, what's the big deal? I don't know, but anyways, my friends band A Moment Spent has a show at the Showcase in Corona with A Distance From Afar on Thursday the 20th for $9, it's gonna be awesome. You can check them out at www.amomentspent.com. Ok well enough promoting them, my life is pretty boring right now so there really isn't much to post about. Sorry I'm so lame, I'll work on that for the next time. So that's about it, I love this song by the Horrorpops so I'm gonna quote it "I did it again, I made a mistake, you're right now are you satisfied? So I did it again, I made a mistake, you're right now are you satisfied? Are you satisfied my love? Are you satisfied? So maybe you were right, maybe I'm not worth the fight, being right is not, oh it's not nice, I wish we had the nerve to be as we were, I wish I could find the root to all good. I did it again I made a mistake, you're right now are you satisfied. So I did it again, I made a mistake, you're right now are you satisfied? Are you satisfied my love. Are you satisfied?" For some odd reason this reminds me of Jen, don't be mad it's just that everytime someone fucks up you jump all over them for it. You make mistakes too, so don't forget. Anyway, that's all.
Rease

PERFECT GUY

1. hair color - Black.
2. eye color - Blue and Green.
3. height – 6'3
4. six pack? – Never hurts
5. long/short hair – Long hair all the way baby, but not super long
6. glasses? – Maybe
7. piercings? – Of course, but none below the belt thanx
8. chest hair? – Hell no
9. buff or skinny – Skinny guys are hott
10. straight teeth, gap, or braces - Straight teeth
11. punk/jock/emo/sXe/goth? – I'd take punk and emo, but that's it for me
12. funny or serious – Funny and sarcastic, which is funny to me, but serious when needed
13. party or stay at home – Party cuz I love to go out but stay at home is ok once in a while
14. should he cook or bake? – Cook, definitely, but I don't know about bake, it would be nice if he knew how I guess
15. should he have a best friend? – Of course, I would never deny the perfect guy a best friedn, bc if he's perfect for me I would never ahve to get jealous, plus guys need friends and if he's cool then I can hang out with him too, so it all works out
16. should he have a lott of girl friends? – I don't know, noit really cuz I get jealous but the perfect guy wouldn't cheat, but I would still get jealous if they were cute so, not a lot, but a few
17. outgoing or shy – Both, but mostly outgoing cuz I am pretty outgoing, just ask my pals
18. sarcastic or sincere – Both of course, I am sarcastic so he would have to be but sincere too when it comes down to it
19. would he watch chick flicks? - Sometimes
20. would he be a smoker? – Either way I don't care if he does fine if not, good for him
21. would he drink? – If he wants to but I don't want a stupid drunk who starts fights or goes off with some girl or can't control himself
22. would he swear? – Yeah, I swear all the time but have courtesy and don't swear around old people, they may have a heart attack
23. would he pay for dates? – Maybe, I would offer, or split it 50/50 but it would be nice
24. does he kiss on the first date? – Yes, but not crazy like just a little
25. where would you go to dinner? - TGIFridays, I love that place and it's so much fun, or this 50's Diner that's 30 mins away from my house
26. would he bring you flowers? – Maybe a couple of daisys or tulips or something, no roses
27. would he lay under the stars with you? – Of course
28. would he write poetry about you? – Maybe a song, but I don't know about poetry
29. would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby? – How about Rease or doll, nothing too mushy
30. would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? – Of course, but he wouldn't start to like any of them and they have to get along well
31. would you hang out with him and HIS friends? – Of course, I actually like to hang out with guys better bc girls are too much drama, but I love my pals
32. would he play sports? – Doesn't hurt but doesn't really matter
33. would he skateboard? – If he wants to
34. would he snowboard? – Yes
35. would he play guitar? – Of course
36. play piano? – Definitely
37. play drums? – Why not
38. would he clean his room? – Yeah but no neat freaks
39. would he paint, draw, sculpt? – Draw
40. would he write his own music? – Yes
41. would he sing for you? – Ummm...maybe, like along to the radio, or messing around or maybe if he wrote a song for me
42. use the word dude? - Yeah
43. use the word tight? – Ok
44. what kind of car would he drive – A Dodge Ram lifted with big tires so we could go off-roading in it
45. would he put his arm around you or hold your hand? – Both but not too clingey
46. would he dance? - Yeah
47. how often would you see him? – All the time but he has to know that I need Rease time and to be with my friends, so probably 5 days out of the week
48. would you want him to get you jewelery? – Maybe, it would be cute if he won me stuff out of quater machines or those claw machines, but I don't need fancy jewelry, if he did though I wouldn't complain, not all the time though
49. stay up and talk all night long? – Yes bc I hate having to do all the talking, even though I talk a lot I want a guy who Can talk a lot too
50. say i love you? – Sure, eventually and not all the time

Where are all the good ones?

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Theresa
2. Rease
3. Cheesai

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My personality
2. My smile
3. Umm that's about it, well maybe, no that's it

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight
2. My nose
3. My voice

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. Guys
2. Love
3. Myself sometimes, but my mom

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. Stupid girls
2. Hypocrites
3. People who sit there with their mouths open

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. My mom trying to kick me out of my house
2. Not knowing what I want to do with my life
3. Ending up alone

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Clean underwear
2. Lip gloss
3. Music

THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. My brother
2. My sister
3. Jen or Mayra, I don't know it's pretty even

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. Talk to hott guys
2. Take shit from people without saying something
3. Handle drama, I'll explode

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Listening to music
2. Sleeping
3. PLaying with my baby cousins, and now my nephew Tyson

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. Someone to make me laugh
2. Lots of money
3. Happiness

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Profiler
2. Homicide Detective
3. Way off from these two, but Cosmotologist

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. Ireland
2. Greece
3. New York

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get my friends and I in a real band
2. Get married
3. Have a family



I stole this bc I saw it on deadsilence's lj and couldn't help it. Ok here's what's been goin on. My sister had her baby, a boy, Tyson, Sean kissed me, which I actually didn't want, Darryl and I have this thing goin, but I don't know what it is. My brother got confirmed, and I'm still not happy. But that's just a quick run through. I'll write more later, it's just that the perfetc guy thing is really long, so more later.
Rease

you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.


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I just saw this on my pal's journal, so I thought I would give it a try.

Ok, not much has happened reall, just that I cut my hair and colored it again, I love it ^_^ Yeah my parents are pretty much over the whole lip piercing thing except they want me to get a smaller ring in, which is cool, cuz I'll just wear a plug, no big deal. But my mom is still psycho and is telling me she doesn't want me living at home anymore. This time I think she's really serious, so it's scaring the shit out of me, what am I going to do? Where am I going to live? Or how am I going to support myself? My mom andI have never really got along, we are complete opposites in everyway. But she doesn't even want to try to understand me she just assumes I'm going out to do drugs and have sex with every guy I see. But it's not true. I am still a virgin and yeah, I've tried stuff, but I don't do it ever, so what if people I know do it, I know not to and don't. She thinks I'm a weak person, but I am a lot stronger than she'll ever know. She doesn't talk to me she talks at me or down at me. She really thibnks I'm stupid and that I have no common sense,she even told me that I must be stupid, and that I have no common sense and she's scared of what stupid things I'm gonna do when I move out. Or when she kicks me out. She always has to be right and if she knows she's wrong she'll argue even harder so it seems like she knows what she's talking about. I don't know what to do anymore everything I do is a mistake to her, I should have done this or that or not done this or that or done this and that better. I hate it, I try not to fight but it's so hard when we don't get along at all. I stay in my room so I don't fight with anybody, but she comes in and yells at me for no reason, just so she can yell. The other day she told me she yells because she loves me and because she's trying to protect me, well if this is her way of showing her love, I definitely don't want to see her hatred. I am so scared, where am I going to live and how can I support myself? I guess I'll get another job and just hope everything works out. I told my sister Liz what was going on because her and my mom don't get along either and she said to just avoid the fighting, but that is the hardest thing to do I try, but I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like giving up, I am so tired and miserable, it's really hard to smile now-a-days. I have been really quiet, just thinking and I can't talk about it because I start crying and I hate crying. I was raised to think it was a sign of weakness, so Jen I'm sorry if I don't tell you every little thing, but I can't. I don't know anymore. It's too much for me to handle. What am I going to do? Anyway, that's pretty much what is going on with me, I'll write more later.
Rease

OK, I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I WANT THIS TO BE ALL CAPS TODAY. DON'T ASK WHY CUZ I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY. BUT YEAH, I'M SO HAPPY, I GOT MY LIP PEIRCED ON FRIDAY WITH ANGELICA, WOOHOO!!! I'M SO HAPPY IT LOOKS AWESOME. AND I'M GETTING MY HAIR CUT THIS WEEKEND HOPEFULLY. OH MAYRA NAD JEN AND ANGELICA YOU GUYS HAVE TO COME WITH ME WEHN I GET IT CUT. ANYWHO, I MISS BERTHA, I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HER IN SO LONG. YEAH AND AFTER I GOT MY LIP PEIRCED ON FRIDAY ANGELICA, MAYRA, VANESSA, VANESSA'S FRINDS, AND I WENT TO A PARTY IN SAN BERANRDINO, IT WAS SO MUCH FUN BUT I WANTED TO STAY LONGER, OH WELL, NEXT TIME. YEAH I DIDN'T REALLY DRINK AT ALL AND I WANTED TO GET DRUNK. OH WELL. NOT MUCH HAS HAPPENED THOUGH. EXCEPT THAT MY SISTER LIZ CAME HOMWE LAST NIGHT, I MISSED HER SO VERY MUCH, BUT SHE'S TRYING TO BE ALL, I DUNNO, NOT HERSELF. IT'S WEIRD. BUT ANYWAY. SHE'S HERE TILL TOMORROW MORNING THEN SHE HAS TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. OK WELL I GUESS THAT'S ALL FOR NOW. I'LL WRITE MORE NEXT TIME, I'M BORING SORRY. OK WELL, LATER.
REASE

Bored out of my mind and starving to death. I am giving up meat for lent, but everything good has meat. But I hate plain meat, like steak and chicken, oh well, I can do it. Not much is goin on, Jen called me last night and I asked if she was mad at me, all she said was that she wasn't the happiest she's ever been. Dude wtf? Go ahead and say tyou were mad and you still are if you are it's ok, I can take it. But whatever, I haven't talked to Mayara since Sat. but we only talked for like 5 mins. Whatever. Ok anyway. I want to go out and not have to worry about driving everyone home and get totally drunk off my ass. I don't know why but I want to. I'm feeling kinda blah. I don't know how to explain it. It's like I'm in purgatory. Not feeling great(heaven) and not feeling like shit(hell). Yeah I don't know. Life sux then we die, not much we can do about it, but I wish it's over soon so I can feel normal, whatever that is. Thinking about how cruel a bitch life is depresses me. And I can't imagine why at all. I wish things were still simple like when I was a little kid and didn't know anything. Why can't it be easy. When you like someone you tell them and they like you, but now all this other shit gets in the way. I hate it. Ugh!! I'm starving, but I have no money and I have nothing to eat at my house. Oh well, maybe if I don't eat for a while I'll lose some weight. Right me of all people should know it doesn't work that quickly. It takes a while to get use to the hunger pains and rumbeling in your tummy. But anyway. I dunno. Friday i'm getting my lip peirced with Ancelica and Mayra, maybe. It'll be great. I want to move out. Last Friday, my mom told me she didn't really want me living with her anymore. Lovely, being told when you're 15 that your dad wants you to move out wasn't enough. So whn I'm 18 my mom has to reinforce that they don't want me. Sorry I'm not perfect, well not really, I'm glad I piss you off, b/c I really don't care anymore. I need to get away from them, and fast. I might do what my sister Cathy did, just join the Navy to get them away from me. I dunno. But I do know that they're driving me insane. I can't take it much longer, I don't know what I'm going to do but when I do it, things will never be the same. Oh well. Why do I always bitch and complain? I should just suck it up, but it's hard to pretend you're happy when you're really miserable.
Rease

100 days have made me older since the last time I saw your pretty face. 1,000 lies have made me colder.

Little Suzy found life to be quite boring and dull, so one day little Suzy jumped out of her window and cracked open her skull.

Am I too lost to be saved? My soul cries for deliverance. My wounds cry for the grave. Will I be denied? Christ! Turniquite! My suicide.

I dunno, just some stuff to think about and make me smile.
^_^ :P

So, I guess I'm a horrible person because I want to have fun. Jen and Mayra are mad at me because last Friday Sean wasn't having a party and Mayra, Angelica, and I were bored so we went to Starbucks and called Jen and she came and we hung out there for a little. Then Mayra said she was hungry. So we went to Denny's like always. And while we were waiting we saw Pat and his friends so I waved to them and wanted to go over to talk to him but didn't. Then, Esmeralda, Bertha, Lily, and Veronica came in and I hugged everyone and everyone was hugging, then everyone except Jen, Angelica, and Mayra went to go say hi to Pat. That's when they first got mad at me because I ditched them but I hadn't seen any of those people in ages and I missed them. Then this girl Nicky was saying she wanted to go to a party, and I wanted to go b/c everyone was going and I wanted to party cuz I almost always do. So I called Mayra and asked if her and Jen were mad at me and she said no you can do whatever you want. So I asked if she wanted to go to a party, she said no, but Angelica wanted to go. So I went over there and Mayra and Jen weren't even talking to me very much they just looked at me. Then I asked if they were mad and they siad no but I knew they were lying and I could tell they were mad at me. But I guess Angelica asked Mayra if she would get mad if she went with me and Mayra said yes. WTF? Can't we have fun I invited them but I guess I'm just so selfish that I can't possibly think of other people. So Angelica and I went to the party and had fun then we went back to this guy Ismael's house and he has a trailor like Sean's and we hung out there for a little til I had to leave. Then I got in trouble for being out late, but whatever. This whole thing is stupid to me but maybe I'm just a bitch, I dunno. Whatever. I'm sorry that jen and Mayra are mad at me but I'm not sorry I went because I had fun and met new people. They can be mad at me, that's fine, as long as they're mature about it, I mean when I call to talk to you about it, answer the phone, or be upfront about it, trust me you won't hurt my feelings. I know you guys are probably saying shit but oh well. I tried to talk to you but I'm not gonna try anymore if you won't listen or weven talk to me.
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Somebody please shoot me, put me out of my misery. I went to Sean's again, on Friday and guess who was there? Of course, Heather. Her and Sean weren't even talking in the beginning and then he had too much to drink and started throwing up. But before that he was dancing around and flirting with everyone which sucked, but wasn't too bad, but then him and Heather disappeared. Guess where they went. Anybody know? Anybody know? Of course in Sean's room. But yeah, I was flirting with this guy Dustin, he's 21, pretty cool. Sean always gets mad when I'm flirting with other guys but when he goes and fucks Heather whenever she's in town, it's ok. Jen, you're right why do I do this to myself? Anyway, that other girl Jen is mad at me b/c her fiance is a flirt and was flirting with me. Yeah I flirted back b/c he is so hott, but I didn't mean anything. And he gave me his jacket and she got all pissed at us, but whatever. I feel like poopoo that someone just stepped in. I feel even worse b/c this is the 2nd time. Damn him. Well me too b/c I do it to myself. I feel stupid, again. Anywho, Angelica got a tattoo on Fri., it's a care bear, it's oh so cute. I guess that's about it for now, I'll spread more love and joy later.
Peppermints and Pennywistles,
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OMFG!!! I'm such a dumbass girl. Why do I do this? Ok, I like Sean again, I was cool when I didn't see him but now that I go to his house like evry week it's happening again. But I don't know. I like him and want him to like me, of course, but I don't want to get hurt. I don't even know if he still has a thing for Heather. Jen gave me really good advice, she said I should either tell him and see what happens or just stop hangin out with him. But I don't want to stop hangin out with him because he's cool and I like the people that go to his house, they're my friends. I hate this, I don't want to feel stupid again like last time and if I tell him I like him what is he gonna say? Will he like me too, or will he think I'm a psycho? I don't want to be rejected, but I probably will be and I don't want things to be weird or uncomfortable. Why do I have to have emotions? Why can't I just be blank or something like that? I have a feeling that would be better for everyone. Anywho, aside from the dumb girl drama, nothing else has really happened. Except last week when I was at Sean's this guy Matt he's like 15 was trying to be pimp and was with this girl my age, then when she left he was like hey come here, to me. But I told him no then he was like, I just want to talk, right. But I went with him anyway, cuz I'm stupid like that. But anywho, he was trying to be all smooth and put the moves on me, yeah, I wasn't really feeling that. But he like shut the door so no one could get in. I told him I had to leave but he was no, come on. Yeah he was kinda pushy, then when I was leaving, I had to take Jeffy and Phillip and all them but Matt is Phillip's bro so I had to take him home too, and yeah the fun just didn't end. Whatever. Yeah but Sean got mad at me or something cuz he was like whatever to me and he seemed kinda bitchy, maybe he was just tired but whatever, ok that's about it for now, cuz Jen and Mayra are yelling at me via aim to get offline and come over to Mayra's house. LoL. Ok that's it.
Peppermints and Pennywhistles,
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Recommend Me:

1. A movie.
2. A book.
3. A musical artist, song, or album.
4. An LJ user not on my friends list.
5. Something to do in the next two months.

Nothing much has happened since my last post except that Jen the loser socked me in the face last night when I was leavingher house. I'm bored, and I don't want to go to work today, I have another 45 mins but I'm dreading it. I don't want to deal with kids today. But yesterday it was so cute, this little girl named Taylor made ,e a Valentine and it said I was her best freind and all this other stuff. It was really sweet. Anyway I stole this from Jen and I'm not giving it back LoL. Mayra, I'm so happy for you. I less than three you. Anywho, that's it more to come later.
Peppermints and Pennywhistles,
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